The earliest mornings have no sun

Drinking hot chocolate at 2:05 AM. I wonder if there is someone, at this moment, drinking hot chocolate too. Maybe it is 2:05 PM where they are. Or rather, 2:06. Or, somewhere where time is no restraint, they are drinking it right now?Are they listening to Tonari no Kaibutsu-Kun OST?  I wonder how they look like. What kind of lives have they lead, or will lead? Are they struggling with their vacation homework too? Have the days gotten uncomfortably lonely for them too? I want to meet them. Right now. I want them to share their stories with me, while we both sip hot chocolate. 

Wind-blown

As I said the usual words of parting during the holidays, I found myself doing it very briefly. Walking away, my bangs fell over my glasses and disrupted my pace. Our separated goodbyes were so sloppy, like we all knew with certainty we would definitely be able to see each other again when school resumes. Have we taken each other's presence for granted? On purpose or unconsciously? During this occasion or all the time? The thought of it made me uneasy. 

This winter, I am actually having a lot more fun than expected. I've been able to have such interesting conversations and hear funny remarks.  I received my first manga and it is One Piece from the goodest Nancy~ The prankster Eric got me deodorant very nicely wrapped. I only wrote holiday cards for Rachel and Gloria (because they're so cool) and was not expecting to get a card and cute earrings from Rachel. Getting to know these people more and more makes me very excited for college. Not only are they genuine, but so full of such positive human traits, the traits I wouldn't mind acquiring. 

My expectations for the next few days are high. Expectations and I have never shared a mutual relationship. Even so, its not my responsibility to make it work. So, expectations, do your stuff~

君に届け

New chapter of Kimi ni Todoke really makes me smile. Sawako and Kazehaya ~ Ayane and Kent~
Come on Chizuru and Ryu~~

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12/12/12 

I mean, it is kind of a big deal. It won't happen again until...a long time from now.

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I don't understand. I thought writing was suppose to be something that came to me. I can't just keep trying to  refurbish sentences til I finally have what I need. Why does it sound fine in my head, but when on paper, close to shitty? Well, fine isn't good enough. Good isn't good enough.

It's got to be awesome. It has to be.

Wrong Something

How's it going? Sorry I haven't been blogging for such a long time. I guess I'm supposed to give an excuse right about now, but, well, I got nothing. 

I've been getting very frustrated, very irritated lately. My mood swings are constantly making their uninvited visits. Maybe it's because the weather is changing, or maybe I am. Why am I so annoying? 

This rarely happens during the summer I realized. My mind gets thrown off into far off distances and is constantly being crushed. There's something wrong with me, but I can quite put my finger on it. Heck, I can't put anything on it. 

What's wrong with me?