Hurry up and wait

I was reading my old posts in this blog and it's been a year huh? Not exactly, but close enough. 
This year I started 2nd period, around 8:00, and leave at 12:50-ish. With three APs and gym last period, there, isn't much to say. Unfortunately. 
Recently a typewriter has inhabited the back of my brain. When I close my eyes, I hear sounds of irritating ticks and printings of what I need to do. There are many assignments I need to complete, applications I need to fill out and things I need to do. I'm still getting my "Emily-hour" everyday; that's the secret to managing my stress. Even with the full six hours of sleep, the yawns keep coming back. 

I apologize for the podsnack advertisement that comes before the songs, but the songs make up for it. 
I promise.

Untitled;

I screamed myself hoarse
and it echoes and echoes
but no one's there to hear it.
The chains are gone, 
but nothing's been freed.

clear-Just Be Friends

Covet

covet v. to want intensely 

Today, my school had an assembly that was supposedly thought of as important. Every time I go to one of those, I end up getting really pissed because they either talk about things I already know or irritating attempts at motivation. So, I didn't go and stayed in my APES class with a few other people.
My friend with the awesomest hair comes in and hangs out (what a rebel). She was telling me about her plan after high school. She will major in Asian studies and apply to an online college for business. She's going to be a business translator. She will have receive a visa and be able to work and stay in Japan at the age of 23. After living there for five years, she'll become a citizen by thirty.
Listening to her talk about her goal, I became very envious. She was so sure about what she wanted to do, and her plan seems flawless. That was something I coveted. I have never been so envious of something, and as I listened to her, I wanted to grab her hand and tell her "You will, without doubt, succeed. And when you do, let's have lunch together in Japan"
It was always a desire of mine to teach in Japan. The environment, even though I have never visited, is something I see in my dreams. I picture myself teaching in front of five-year olds speaking in Japanese and giving biscuits to the clumsy student that accidentally dropped their bento. Hearing my friend's goal, I realize how much exactly I want to make the picture reality.
My cousin is actually teaching in Japan right now. When I heard about it, I also coveted. My desire increased as I wanted, so much, to finish all the requirements to teach in Japan.
This current feud between Japan and China makes me very upset, because I know I'm not the only person that has a dream of going to another country and accomplishing their desires. Perhaps someone in Japan would love to go to China as well.
I can confidently say, that my dream is to teach preschool or elementary in Japan. But I fear devising a plan, because I know any missteps in the plan will be a road bump. So I will give it my bestest shot and to make it come true.

Eschew

eschew v. to avoid, shun

Today's word was chosen because it is a rather cute word. I don't think there is a way to say it that won't follow with slight giggles. I hope that was phrased in a way that made sense..
I've finished my homework for tomorrow, but I should begin with the others that are due next week. Sleeping at twelve o'clock won't work anymore, every blink of an eye is just a step closer to falling asleep. But, maybe I'll leave that for tomorrow.
I finished building Going Merry on Sunday~ It is now happily next to Thousand Sunny in a clean space in my room. I'll upload a picture soon?
Lately, I've been thinking about Natsume Takashi. How he is so nice even to those that aren't to him, how he is so sincere and works hard to help other humans and youkai. Most people think fantasizing about fictional characters is, well to put it simply, stupidly retarded. In some ways, I guess it could be. But, when I watch Natsume Yuujinchou, I want to be just as nice and helpful to others. When I watch Gintama and One Piece, I think about the importance of risking everything for what you think is important. Kimi to Boku is definately a portrayal of the friendship I hope to make.
Now that I'm going off on a tangent, guess I'll stop here to avoid further embarrassment.

Thanks for reading ^^

Abate

abate v. to become less in amount or intensity

School has recently started. I am constantly reminded of the past days as the weather starts to get colder. But no complaints here, I fell in love with the September breeze.
I have three AP classes, so procrastination is not an option. Even so, I've started a new manga, Dengeki Daisy. Reading shoujo mangas get me a little bit depressed, because I always reminiscence and dream about that kind of romance. I'm a hopeless romantic aren't I?
Today, something in me stirred so I searched up that song again. The song we heard on the rooftop on the last day. But this time, I didn't cry. I stopped the song before it ended. I'm waiting for the day when I can smile wholeheartedly about those days we all spent together. But I fear what the future holds.
My blog views have increased since the last time I've signed on. Thank you for all that have read, or even passed by. ^^
I haven't written in my other blog because it bothers me a little writing such personal things for someone I know to see. Even if she is my best friend; I guess that is something I have to overcome. Being honest sure is difficult.
And without my consent, the leaves continue to fall. It will be time for me to rake them again. As the sun's warmth abates, so will my energy.

I hope you have warm clothes for the upcoming winter.

and hope the sun doesn't stop shining
because I'll never get tired of you smiling © 

Heartache

I just finished re-watching Clannad & Clannad After Story. I remember when I had first told my friend about it, she also noted that the art was good, but she found it to be too boring. I laughed and said it was only the first episode. I don't want to come up with something my mind wants, but I don't quite remember what she said after. I wonder if she would've liked it if she had knew it would be about such a wondrous story. There's nothing quite like Clannad to get my wretched heart aching.

Disconcert

disconcert verb to upset the calm


I was asked a question yesterday that I could not answer. When she asked, I was surprised she shifted the conversation in that direction. I wasn't sure what to reply. "That, that's a pretty good question. I...I don't know." I wasn't upset that she asked, I was pissed because I didn't know the answer.  But, the anger subsided when my nephew threw up on my shirt. (no sarcasm intended) I'm glad he felt better afterward.
"So, what do you love?" she asked.