If one day,

If one day you became my camera, you still wouldn't be able to see what I see because you're never looking. And it wouldn't matter how much I zoomed in or out because you're never paying attention. You'll never be able to understand my contentment of a good captured memory because you never took ours to heart. And if I tried explaining to you how important this is to me, you wouldn't hear me because you're never listening. And if I reached for your hand, you would turn away because you don't care.

You never did. 

Annoyances

You know what I don't really understand is the ignorance of people. When we were little, we would always say "it's none of your beezwax" when we would poke our noses into two girl's conversation. Worse case scenario, we would tattle tail on them on the teacher and they would, well, mind their own beezwax. But there is no more telling on them when you get older. People need to understand that whatever happens to two other people is really none of their business. If they want to share, then they will. And if you're asking because you care and just want to know of the situation so you don't say anything stupid, go ahead. But we are not a show. We don't need to report to anyone. I don't need to hear stupid remarks and your opinion. The only reason you should be voicing your opinion is if I so much as ask for it. I'm already drowning in guilt and your stupid little ignorance I really don't need. Within juggling everyday irritations, I need to deal with figuring out what the hell I'm going to do. And I know you're trying extra hard to not to say anything but it shows on your face oh so clearly what you're thinking. But for not saying anything, I appreciate that. But, some people really need to put their noses where they belong. And it is not in my or our business. 

Mind your own damn beezwax.

his friend

I wish I could make a new friend today. She blew the dandelion. He said that if he wasn't there to make her wish come true, all she had to do was find a dandelion, make a wish and blow all the fluff away. Fluff, that's probably not what its called but he didn't want to look stupid in front of her, she thought. Where have you gone? I need someone here to make my wish come true, not have fluff make miracles happen. Where are you? 

As she watched the fluff dance with the wind, rain started to fall. She grabbed her bag off the ground and began running. If she had stopped to look at the nearby farmer's market, she would've been able to shelter under one of the tents. But she kept running in the direction of her wish. Stopping in front of lonely spot on the ground with soaked white fluffs, she started to cry. They have not traveled far enough to reach him, to tell him to come back and help her grant her wish. Stupid dandelions..

Rain didn't seem to have a sense of time and she didn't seem to have any either. But the rain finally stopped. Bending down, she tried to pick up what remained, but only touched the cold and lonely cement ground. Please. Please come back. Even if you don't know where to find me, are you searching? 

Without any awareness of her surroundings, a cat came and began to lick her hand. A grey cat with remnants of orange, it looked almost like her: cold, lonely and wet. The cat looked up at her and used his head to brush against her hand. The girl scratched the cat's ears. He made a face of what seemed like a smile. Sitting down on the wet fluffs, he looked up at her. Laughing, the girl picked him up. Thank you for finding me. 

Ruby

Today I went to go get a haircut at Sal's (I hope that's how you spell his name ^^"), Samantha goes there a lot and she suggested I try it out. I went first and got a pretty good haircut, so it was fun ~ Afterward, I sat there and waited for Sam to get hers and a cat walked into the room. Her name is Ruby. The first time, she climbed the chair next to mine and sniffed me. This was the first time a cat has ever been so friendly with me. She licked me; I always thought cat's tongues were like sandpaper, but I guess I was wrong. She left the room after sniffing me some more. Minutes later, she came back and started sniffed my knee and my armpits. I guess she didn't mind the smell so she made herself comfortable on my thighs. She used her head and tried to move my hand so I could give her a nice cat massage. I spent a good 15 minutes sitting there scratching her, she's soft ~ And sometimes her tail would kind of move around in a circle. She was really enjoying it when she had her eyes closed, almost smiling. I was upset I had to leave her because she looked so relaxed with my prescense and I was very happy being with her too ~ I felt like she was trying to tell me something but totally forgot when I started massaging her. 

Even so, I know Sal is a great cat friend and he'll take awesome care of her. He's a pretty cool guy and Ruby is in good care. 

This one was a change of pace huh. Good night ^^

Google is so sweet ~